"There are 2 things you should adhere to in life.
1)Always tell the truth
2)Never do anything you don't want to do."
The problem is, what if those 2 things clash? What if what you want to do is say whatever fits the situation best, if it's the truth or not?
Well #1, I think, if followed, ends up guaranteeing the long-term realization of #2.
I New Year's-resolutioned that quote years ago, and I'm more enthusiastic than ever about sticking to it. (#1 in an 'avoid the drama of falseness that always catches up with you' kind of way, and #2 not in a defeatist, lazy way, but in a 'be true to yourself and don't be a one of the sheep' kind of way.) That said, I feel like marching off backed up by my solid little #1 and #2 and happily telling back-stabbing 'friends' i've wasted silly amounts of time being falsely nice to, that they can go to hell and stay there.
I made that vow 'Years ago' already? Wow. Growing up is so crazy, sexy cool. I mean, scary as shit. I mean, I can't stop it, so I'm just hanging on for a dear life. I hope.
Isn't life supposed to become less complicated, at least in your head, as you gain wisdom and maturity? maybe that was just wishful thinking inundated into me in my youth by hopeful adults lost enough to believe in having it all figured out.
sometimes it seems like I'm just gaining more convulted and jaded observations, thoughts, ideas and most of all questionsto whambamslam into my already overly-analytical skull.
But. As I grow I choose to remain adventurous and courageous and open-minded and most of all, soft-hearted. Never too scarred and scared to love again. Scabs are so ugly and healing is so fresh and beautiful. At least I have control over that miracle.
And thank the gods that my belief in #2 has already led me to choose the un-jam your skull catharsis of a writing career.